Okey, so now I have some preparation to do. First I'm gonna run and have lunch, then it's my turn to clean the bathroom and then I'm gonna clean my room, after that I'm heading to buy strawberries and ice. Finally I'm going to the airport to pick upp my friends.

E.O.I

I don't like my class. Therefore I'm never there, it is not just the hours comibned with me being really lazy, hos the class is annoyes me. Everyone shouting at the same time and the constant talking of the guys behind me. It's not like they say something occansoinaly, the talk the whole time and not even in Spanish. I can not do anything about the class hsouting answers the whole time but I can do something about the chicken farm behind me. I've moved, changed place and switched chair so now I can't hear them anymore.

The excitment of co-living

I'm a clean person, damnit, but I will never be as clean and tidy as my roommates. The whole laundry thing stresses me. Actually a lot more than I want to admit. It is not that I am blocked from using the washing machine, it actually goes quite smoothly and whenever I need to use it, it is free (which is impressive, considering they use it every other day) But it stresses me that they do so much laundry. First of all, the can not fill the thing up every time and second, the cords are never free and third, it is just stressful. On the other hand, its like a collar with a bell, I know if they are home or not.

Qoute - Alan and Jake, Two hand a half men

Sorry, my mistake. The girls are coming tomorrow and not today. That give me one extra day for studying (yeah, like I´m really putting myself into that one). There´s a packed schedule and I suspect that the stores of Malaga is gonna make good profit the coming weekend. And now the weather is awesome so there´s nothing that can go wrong.

I got the question if I miss Sweden the other day. And, to my somewhat suprise I quickly answered "no". and after reflecting on it, I relized that I do not miss Sweden. Maybe it is all the crap that is dispayed on my facebook news feed or maybe I just don´t really feel a special connection to a country just because I grew up in it. I do miss my friends, my things and sometimes to be able to spontaneously talk to someone at the bus stop, grocery store or on the street. But my friends are the same, regardless of my whereabouts and things are movable and noone really spontaneously talk to anyone anyway in Sweden. So I do not miss Sweden, sorry.

I´m still to shy to spontaneously talk spanish and I feel insecure but I know that I have been writing a lot about when I feel really bad about my spanish so I thought that I would write something positive. I´m talking more and more and even if me and Mr. M still are kind of struggling with it, I have other friends to talk to. It´s not that I´ve been missing ppl to talk to, it´s just that I haven´t felt comfortable to talk until now and have preffered to speak english. But now, it´s gonna be more and more.

I slept most of the day away (until noon) and I have mixed feelings about it. On the one hand, I have the feeling that I'm not gonna have the chance to sleep much the coming days and I really like to sleep, on the other hand, I don't have that much days left and there's things that I want to do so I should do them instead of sleeping. But in the end, I really like to sleep.

This weekend has been busy. On Friday I had (what I first thought would be a quiet evening) a girls pre-party. Unfortunate for me, there had been bought a tequila and as I can't say no to that, the evening got a little more blurry than I originaly wanted. But it sure was fun. And in the joyfulness, I borrowed out my apartment for a birthday party (which may cause a bit of a problem with my roommates but I don't know yet).

Anyway, Saturday were the day of the big weeding and I woke up with a hell of a headace. Noone to blame but myself, of course but I did not feel like going to a wedding at all. But I did and I am so glad I did. The wedding was amazing, the food delicious and the wedding couple beautiful. During the dinner, the hangover reminded itself and I could only finish half of the dishes which angers me a little bit, food that good should be eaten! After the weeding some of us went to a bar in Malaga. I've never been there before and the music was not that good and the drinks really expensive so I guess it was the first and the last time.

Sunday turned out to be date night. Me and Mr. M went to see Ironman 2 and had dinner at Mcdonalds, a typical date night.

Oh, and for those who wonders, I did not catch the bouguet. And I am not sad about it.

On Wednsday I expect my girls from Sweden. I can't really say more than I'm completely bubbling with excitment and I'm so looking forward to it. So, to be as prepared as I can, I'm going with Mr. M to his school today to study with him so that I don't have anything hanging over my head when my girls are here. They are gonna get my fully attention and we're gonna bathe in strawberries and sangria!

I have no idea if it went good or not and in the end she asked me for references, which didn´t not strike me to add in the application letter. so basically i started to search the internet after phonenumbers and names I´ve forgot ages ago. I didn´t found what I was looking for so I decided to call instead and ask directly rather than chicken out and send an email. My boss from my internship from 2005 remembered me and she actually said "of course I remember you, we were really satisified". Which means that it wasnt a big deal that I hadn´t send christmas cards and trying to suck ass after my internship was over (those things are important in my business) and still she remembered me, i´m a bit proud. My second reference is the radio where I worked for a couple of weeks when i fisrt got here. Well, it was free work, like work for trying to pay my own salary, it´s complicated but she said yes to. Now, I only need my former boss approval and I can send in my references (he didn´t answer his phone and I´ve sent him an email). Hopefully I´m not gonna be to late, she´s gonna call me on Thursday again.

I´m nervous, I would really like this job.

I´ve been trying a lot lately to start talking. I sound horrible but now I am trying. It is still wierd with Mr. M but it goes better with other people. I even manage to find a Spanish girl who wants to practice Swedish. Awseume!

I´m going to bed, tomorrow is running day.

It´s so typical me to finally find a type of excersie that I like just to have my body say a big no about it. I really enjoy jogging, it gives me a chance to just escape in myself and disapear from the world while I work on my condition (catching my breath, it is not that cool to runt 10 meters to the bus and not be able to catch my breath almost until the bus arrives to its destination) and getting fresh air and sunshine (I tend to get stuck in front of the computer, it´s a good thing to get out). But, and this is a big but, my spinalcord do not approve. I turn into a crypling that can barely walk and it hurts like freaking hell. I have some excersises to do to easy the pain and somewhat prevent it but when I run on hard asfalt, there´s nothing I can do to prevent it.

The thing is that I can run in the forest but i can barely walk in the forest without tripping and falling everywhere so jogging is not an alternative and here, there´s no forest anyway. I guess I´m just gonna live with the pain afterwards, for now, if it gets worse, I guess I have to find something else to do,

Suddenly it´s 25C and the beaches is full of people and the town is full of tourists. I went to the beach yesterday but i sadly forgot the sunblock, which has resulted in a very red back. It doesn´t hurt as much as expected but next time, I´m defintily bringing the sunblock.

Okey, it's 25C and I'm going to the beach.

I´m still working on all those little things and it is going suprisingly well. I aslo managed to shorten my time for my 5 km run (even though my back hurt as fucking hell right no, I should not run on that kind of surface, like sidewalk, but there´s not really any other to find here) I reserved the hotel room for my parents earlier today and I hope that the planes are gonna be up and working by the time they are coming (1-6 of May).

Wednsday is slow days. I´m still waiting for new episodes from The big bang theory and other than that, I study Spanish. Nothing more to it. It is in the middle of the week (working week, not that I work that hard but still) and nothing is happening.

I had some problems booking my flight ticket and I assumed that it had something to do with the fact that the airports are currently closed and noone is flying anywhere for the immidiate future (and for who know how long) but after three days of trying and several attepmts to pay with my credit card I thought to myself that I just have to call and ask them. I mean, I'm flying in June and if the airports are not open by then, they will probably never open again and I didn't have  problem with the actual booking but with the payment, it said that my creditcard was not authorized (and firhter down they suggested that I pay with a credicard cus it is so safe on their website, I guess it can't get any safer than... not working). Anyhow, I called the nice people at norwegian.se and the problem had nothing to do with iceland or the website or anything connecting to flying or the flying company at all. It was my credit card (I do have money on it, I assure you, that was not the problem), they changed something and I had to authorize my creditcards for online payments before I could do any. As easy as that, I just logged into my bank and authorizd the damn thing and it all worked as a charm. I'm really glad that I sat in the phone for half an hour waiting, because I would have never figured out this thing by myself

I remember last year, when the swine flu was the biggest threat and made it difficult for everyone who go by air. I was currently in Tennesse, so I was close to the centre of the cause and colleges around us were shutting down. People at my college really didn't want that to happen in the middle of exam and graduation periods but for us internaitonal student, it was crucial for our return back home that the college would close down. It was all actually hanging on a thin line and as I felt a cold when returning to Sweden I had to go to the doctor. Not that it is impossible to travel without the airplane but trips that you assumed would take four hours, are now taking three days (at best) and for a lot of people, this is a complete disaster. I'm not saying that it isn't, I'm just glad this event didn't happen last year. But the human race are sure tiny and fragile and some journalist even say that now we have to invent the wheel all over again. It's not that serious, the only thing that we actually lost is time, there's a lot more other stuff that could happen that would actually mean that we have to do things a whole lot different, like the oil drying up. That's a crisis.

Seriously, study! What is wrong with me?

I decided that this is gonna be the day where I get a lot of small things done, you know, all of those things that is always on your mind and don't necessarly take so muhc time but you don't just do them, or stuff that you really want to do but you keep pushing it because of all those small things that you really need to get done before you can concentrate. This is my eternal evil cirkel and in the end, I just sit in front of my computer and watch episode after episode of some tv-show, when I actually want to make and awsume drawing or install the Sims 3 but don't because I need to buy an airplane ticket, send some email and do my declaration. As you can guess, my blog got into this evil cirkel and I just stopped writing. But I feel that I am on my way out of this and today is the day where all those small things are gonna be done and finished.

Later, if I manage to do those things, I'm gonna reward myself by buying half a kilo of strawberries for 0,75€. I'm just saying it is cheap and I love strawberries. Love them!

But right now, I am actually deep in my Spanish books!

O woke up at six something (??) because they were doing some very loud construction (I'm guessing) work or someone just felt like sawing through metal for an hour. It was extremely painfull and I tried to shut my balcony doors but without sucess because I was really dizzy, I almost fell when I went out of bed in pure anger. When the alarm sounded an hour and a half later, I just couldn't manage to get up, I was still dizzy for some reason. I guess it all comes from that I haven't ogt any sleep in the last two days, this night was my night to catch up (I did not have a nap yesterday) but due to other circumstanses, that did not work. So I skipped class today. Hopfully, it is gonna result in a lot of independent Spanish studying.

Me and Mr. M went to the movie a couple of days ago and we saw Clash of the Titans. I liked the move (Mr. M didn't) exept from one thing. SPOILERALERT! They show the final scene on the poster. Reallly?! It doesn't take a genius to see that it is not the very last scen but the final scen of the problem of the movie, so to say, and they put that on the poster? Someone did not do a good job.

As I said, Spanish, Spanish, Spanish :)

It's interesting how the fewer the people the more the wshing machine in my apartment is being used. Now we are three people in an apartment for seven. There's one washing machine and one of those indoor things to hang your clothes on. There are string outside but I don't have those things to keep your clothes on the strings so I prefer to hang them indoors. The interesting thing that I have noticed is that it is actually harder to wash now, when we are three and before, when we were seven. And another interesting thing. When I lived in Karlstad, we had two washing machines on 24 people and there were never any problem at all doing oyur laundry. How come that it gets harder to wash the fewer people?

Even thought I am starting to get annoyed with those small things that everyone has. The habit of "what I do is the right way of doing it and if everyone did so there would be no problems living togehter" which is never true. The simple explanation of that is that a person living by oneself would never have dirty dishes, dirty clothes of any mess of any kind. When living togheter it doesn't come down to do it the right or the wrong way, it has to be done the agreed way and then it can be done in any way. It's the small things, like when to do your dishes, sure the right way is to do them right away but even the most perfect person have had to leave them at one point, so then what? Then it is better to agree about how long before it's not tolerable anymore and where and how to keep them. Some fill eveything with water, others thinks that is disgusting and those are the things to talk about. Not only yell when someone is not doing it the way you learned from at home.

After being a roommate for eight years soon, I am of the opinion that everyone should be forced to live with other people at one point in you life.

When you get out of high school people are hapy because that is the last time you've been forced together with people of not your choice. My first thought is that this is good too, but the more I think about it, the more I feel that this is not positive at all. All of my best friends do not share my opinions, interest of dreamjob, we have stuff in common but atleast I tend to like peope who are not like me. And the only way for me to find these people is to be forced togehter with them. I guess that's way I like the whole living together with strangers thing, you never know who you might stumble upon.

Todays entry became a little philosofical but the laundry thing kind of annoys me. There's stuff at school that annoys me to but let's save that for another day. I don't want you to stop reading in the middle of the entry thinking "does she never stop"

It is indeed nice to run on the beach walk. I'm trying to find how long of a distance it is so that I cna tel you, but I don't make any sense out of the google maps. They have street wiev and everything from Malaga now, but it doesn't really help. They are building and remodeling the whole city (atleast it feels like it) so the pictures are probably no accurate at all

I don't seem to manage to get my face away from the computer so I'm tryin a new strategy, I'm gonna take my books and go to Dunkin and study.

Yesterday I met with a Swedish girl I met months ago at a friends goodbye dinner. I met her at a teteria (another one) with two French girls (one of them I met before with the friend who left) and it was a compete disaster. My Spanish is far from good, and it is actually no suprise, I hardly do any homework and in class, I'm a big question mark. I know that complaining about it is not gonna make it better, study will (and I will get there) but I felt like updating my blog with a little of personal emotions of mine.

Teteria is like a café but with tees instead. They have coffee aswell but the focus is on te. But, to be honest, it feels like you can get mostly the same things everywhere, the main difference is actually the interior. I don't know anything about interior design but maybe it would be said that a teteria look more Maroccan while a café looks like, well, you all know what a café looks like.

I'm really trying to make friends here. It goes well in quality but not so much in quantity. I know it is my lack of Spanish. At the same time that I feel that I should try more, I feel that I've hardly been here a year and that I shouldn't feel so much pressure. Most of the erasmus students that comes here, has studied the language for years (and actually cared, not like me, trying to get out of it) and are just dying to practise it. I just feel that I want to go throught some grammatical courses and be able to listen and understand a tv- show before I try to master the social conversational skills. Never the less, I feel inbelivable rude when I don't know what to say. And I can stop thinking about all those people demanding that everyone who steps behind the Swedish border should talk perfect Swedish and nothing less. And I think about myself, who refused to call a pizzeria for years because I got so confused with accent they had.  I really want to but learning is hard and I have never been good at it.

It's not fun to read a blog where the writer seem to do everything to get you into a bad mood. But I feel I need to have one of those days now. A day when I feel sorry for myself and wishes everything would be a lot more easier. It's gonna be different tomorrow.

Coming soon!

Btw, not that I've thought that I am the only swedish person who blogs that lives in Spain, but I still wonder "why not me" when I saw the article about a Swedish girl in Barcelona blogging about her life there. It's always funny how all of these people on the blogg.se's frontpage are always so suprised they got there, how do they find these people?

This is gonna be pink suit day (it is more like a dress, in the meaning of sweater and pants being in the same fabric and color) and I'm gonna get a lot of important stuff done, I swear. I've been good the last three days by walking (and sometimes running) seven km a day so I thought that I would do some other good today. Hence the pink suit, now I have to stay where I am (I will not show myself in public in this, but it is awesome at home)

Okey, so the plan for the summer is to work in Norway. The plan for the fall is falling apart. The universuty in Skövde is not a top choice for Mr. M and honestly, there's nothing I want to study there either (I would love to study and have a part time job and not only work full time) A better choice for Mr. M is Denmark. But I have no idea how easy it would be for me to get a job there, and besides, should I and do I want to follow him? I don't know what to do (how's this for giving out personal information on my blog). But I'm gonna decide today.

As you probably noticed, I've done some changes to the blog and I want to say that I am not finished. The second link in the top right corner is still to be made and I haven't really done anything on the category page (even though I'm not sure if I should have categorys or just create another link and collect all the picture entries underneath that instead). I'm working on it and today, that is on my to-do list.

• But I would like to know what you think?
• Should I have categories or a picture link?
• Is there anything else I should take care of or should add?
• What do you think?

I'm waiting for my landlord to show up so I can pay my rent. It is not that I mind to go where she is and pay it but she told me yesterday that she would be here at five. Now it is 5:45 and I'm kind of starting to think that I don't want to wait longer. I've been putting off going to the shower, thinking that it might be nice to not be in the shower when she shows up. But now I'm starting to doubt that it is gonna happen. Not that I need people to be sharp on time, it's a common fact that I myself doesn't know the concept of sharp times, so why would I expect that from others. But 45 min, might be taking it a little to far.

I've been so good today it crazy. I went to class this morning and went I got home, the very first thing I did was to fill the washer machine. In the meantime for that to be done, I had a snack and checked my framville and updated my blog. When the machine was finished, I started another one before my 7 km walk/run. When I got back home, I made chickencurry with rice for lunch (really good, actually). I usually manage to do one of those things, so today was defenitly a good day.

I think I'm going to this exhibit with photos or something. We'll se what it is

Waiting and waiting

I actually had a conversation in Spanish earlier. I came from the bus, walking to my place and I passed a resturant where one of the guys that used to live in my apartment work. He's from Argentina and doesn't know any English, so speaking in Spanish is the only option. I've always avoided speaking to him because (as you know) I am really insecure about my Spanish. But today, I actually manage to have a conversation where I actually said something and didn't just try my hardest to understand what he was talking about. I'm really proud of myself despite the fact that I didn't really understand everything he said and everything I said were completely wrong. But, I think he understood what I was talking about and that is the important thing.

Now, I'm mentally preparing myself for going out on a run. I've downloaded some auido books  that I'm gonna listen to.

I have the feeling that this is gonna be a busy day...

Okay, it's sunny outside and I'm trying to be on my feet to get out and walk. But there's just so many things I need to do before I can get out of the door. I need to take care of my farm and write a blog entry (and stuff like a friend got a new job and I'm out of qoutes got in the way)

It's sunny here now but the wind is cold so it feels kind of like the spring in Sweden (which feels wierd)

I love comments on my new design (more please). Thank you. I spent a lot of time doing it and I'm not finished because I got lost in the code and now I don't know what I'm doing. Atleast now the comment page is in English as well as the front page.

I'm getting tired and frustrated. I've started to memorize words but I seem not ot be able to do anything right, I feel worthless. Besides, the people in the class are starting to bug me. I had a couple of episodes some weeks ago but I shoke it of. Now, they seem to repeat themselfes. In the beginning, I was sitting next to two English women who had some problems following the class. So, they talked the whole freakin time instead. I locked my ears in that direction for a long time (I have that ability, more than you can imagen) but in the end I told them that if they paied more attention on what the teacher was saying rather than talking about it, they might catch a few more words. It helped, a bit. In the end, they both disaperared anyway, so, problem solved. Then I had another ugly episode with a girl who started to tell me the right answers to a home work I hadn't done. I don't like that. I find people that talks annoying, as much, but I find people who gives me the right answers without me even trying first very irritating. I told her to stop doing that but she continued. Luckely, she didn't sit beside (or came to class) me again.

But today, two guys that I have behind me had a loud converastion thougout the whole class. And, for a brief moment, the buy sitting next to me gave me the right answer when it was my turn to say it (I already had the right answer so it was not a big deal). I sat for a long time, thinking about what to tell the guys. I mean, I don't wanna be mean and besides, if they would just have lowered their voices a little bit, I would have heard the teacher a lot better.

Then I relized, if I can't beat them, join them (not that I had tried but still) so I just turned around, looked at them and said hello (in Spanish). They got dead quiet. Didn't say a word. I asked them if they are speaking spanish or another language, they replied Spanish. I said good and turned around again. This helped a lot. They were a lot more wuite for the rest of the class.

I guess I'm a bit damaged by my juniour high teachers, who one of them made the embariss a teenager to an art from and my English teacher, who didn't mind us talking during class, as long as it was English.

Sorry for the long entry. I have a lot on my mind but now, I'm gonna have a walk.